DrΞäM IväN

心痛

2010-03-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

心痛..

为什么每次你做错了,

都是要我道歉..

明明是你自己说话对我态度不好,

问你东西,你就说:什么?!!

有必要酱子吗?

给你做到心情不好,

又要给你说到好像我故意摆臭脸..

难搞~

好久没update blog了

2010-03-28T10:22:00.000-07:00

难道是时候改变了?

超不喜欢压力..

头脑在想说..是时候面对了吗?

总是想保持在原点不好吗?

开始去尝试压力是件好事?

他从来不知道我所面对的问题..

我也不知怎么说..

有些东西不是说变就变,

而是怕变了会变质..

不知怎么说..真复杂~

i'm back since long time ad..

2009-10-08T10:24:00.000-07:00

sry guys,reali lazy 2 update..
but jz gt picture 2 share nia,taking during holidays~
me n khai ling,my ex-housemate~cindy~^^

ApartMeNt DaY

2009-08-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

26/08/09
lolz..sry reader~
finally..i come updated my blog since the apartment day so long ad..
coz a little bit lazy..damn lazy ivan,haha!

tat day 22/08/09,saturday n we going 2 SRI SAYANG at Batu Ferringgi,
at ther de seaview very beautiful n hav nice swimming pool

actually it's celebration of SWC committee,for?watever lah..
hehe..tat day gt ah lam lah, lingurl lah, laze, hory, vincent, cherry, ee looi, enson, eson,
rachael, denny, tortoise, pheypei n me..
many leh?ok loh~

one thing they say bout the LIFT in SRI SAYANG r the 'fastest lift' in penang oh..
did some1 know bout tis?
tat day afternoon bout 3pm like tat me n enson reach SRI SAYANG
n pay RM5 for car parking 4 whole day..
well..whn we reach our room at 11 floor,quite boring de..
but..afterward they suggest 2 swimming loh..
but whn reach ther the pool seem like mix wif coffee wif milk..haha!
coz..u know different skin colour in 1 pool, black n white wo..
i'm nt prejudis n diskriminasi as tis teach in my etnik lesson..
don't wrong thk bout tis..xixi!
jz kidding lah..

after swimming n taking shower, we having quite fun de dinner
tat is streamboat,i very like streamboat..
it quite delicious de..
at the night we jz stay in the room coz damn unlucky rainning,
so we hav 2 stay in the room coz cannot go out..
sienz..n i playing poker card wif rachael, pheypei n denny..
but..they at last oso call us out 2 play "TRUE o DARE" game in living room~
starting very boring de,next become more EXCITED..
u know why?everything start after my 1st round being kena choose,
n i pick TRUE ,n they ask sumthing really quite shock me de question,
they ask:

1. after u join prom,u gt girl tat u interest wif? n i answer yes..
2. n tell me which girl u like?n i quite shy 2 answer XXX..
oh my god!she beside me nia~

damn it! thn after thing become,u know?
it become more deadlock..
wat 2 do?
i hav 2 honestly coz they say if answer dishonest, ur both parent leg broken..
wat a crazy game..
later we oso play game,which huever lose kena punish drink carlsberg n tiger
actually i thk tat both alcohol no gud 2 drink,wat a bad taste..hehe!
n the next day we 12 pm hav 2 sign up ad..

FiNal ExaM is NeaR ad..

2009-08-19T12:31:00.000-07:00

final exam coming soon~

so scare..coz nt prepare yt,n i thk many of my subject still半天吊..
lolz..but..!!i will gambateh de,
so tat i won't waste my money on damn resit paper..haha!
加油..

n i thk tat tis few week will a little bit bz ad..
sry 2 say tat i will less open msn ( open oso no use, less fren in msn,boring!)
by the way..for those hu din hav my msn, add me in dream_ivan@hotmail.com
thx^^
n i will oso less update blog ad,coz wan starting study hard ad..
hope u guys will forgive me..

MoviE DaYs..

2009-08-19T12:16:00.001-07:00

damn tired..
19/08/09

2day we aric, yaya, cherry, enson, looi looi n other frenz, all 15 ppl,
laze,cindy n many more( too many lah..)
we go gurney watch movie whole night,ki siao ad..
we go watch 2 movie oh,

-Tracing Shadow
very废de movie,but funny loh..(rate 2/5)
tat all!if wan know more,go watch sendiri lah..

-Overhead
what a meaningful movie..(rate 4/5)
tat all i can say!if wan know more,go watch sendiri lah..

2day really enjoy the movie n joining fren 2gather,
watching movie, playing games, eat 2gather..
n 2day is the 1st time i become closer 2 looi looi oh..

be4 at prom i jz stick a lot wif aric nia~
n i'm the 1 less talk 2 other prom candidate loh..
so sorry 2 say tat..
and..meaningful,i really appreciate friendship..
but..not many ppl realise n know about this..
wan 2 know?jz understanding more bout me lah..haha!

feeling tis thing,hard 2 say..

2009-08-16T12:03:00.001-07:00

有时真不知自己在想什么,真让人抓无~
我以为我真的那么了解我自己，原来我自己也不知道我要些什么..
有点感觉迷失在无路的道路上..
那种感觉真让人...不懂啦..
今天就去了靠近海边的sunset,喝了两瓶酒..(几坏咯..)
我觉得海边的感觉真让人舒服,也会让人想起心事,是个贪吐心事的好地方~
就让我有种感觉,不知道什么感觉,就想单独一个人在海边漫步地走..
我一直在想是不是我对她有意思，是我觉得不可能的事..
因为我觉得她不会对我有意思的咯,
咳~习惯了啦..我喜欢的都对我没意思的啦..
有时在想自己是否真的喜欢上她了..
难道..我真的对她有意思?
(如果看到这个blog请不要问我!!我不知道怎样回答..）
我自己都不懂..很白痴吧~当你感觉像我你就懂了,感觉不高兴可是又不知什么回事..

搬家..

2009-08-16T11:51:00.001-07:00

今天我搬家了哦,今天下午三点就叫我的ex我去sunway然后enson载我回槟城..
真的是头痛!!因为不知道要不要搬到房东的另一间家还是搬到别位去~
结果就决定搬到enson家去暂时住吧,过后才考虑..

过后旁晚就去new world park看doraemon他们跳舞,就跟loi loi,婉君,aric,enson他们一起去~
过后去吃东西，结果他们就讲说去gurney看戏..
就坐enson的车去,结果没有人去戏院也关了,光良就上厕所还去打机,
最想不到的是回时还票钱RM3.00,
walao！去不到半小时pun..

过后就去sunset,靠近batu feringgi那里去喝酒..
还玩了诚实大胆游戏,够力到....

ReLaX

2009-08-14T14:10:00.000-07:00

finally tis week buzy finish ad,prom competition, presentation, assignment and tis week de test..
all finish ad,n so relaxing..

2day wuang ching back from Kampar oh..
n..we go 2 red box at gurney~all r the commitee n prom frenz..
we quite siao together whn in red box,but it seem weird becoz sum fren din crazy 2gather..
all i know is we got large luxury room..large till.....hoho..

n we crazy until outsider pass by de customer look inside our room,so paiseh~
becoz ur room is outside is buffet place..haha!
we sing until 3 am like tat thn we go McD buy some supper n go gurney beach ther "sembang"
siao til..haiz!

but it is very happy tat we r together as wuang ching won't back penang 4 tis semester ad..
n she wan 2 back 2 her 'ulu' Kampar..
wat 2 do,coz she need 2 study 2 prepare 4 her exam..
so pity coz ther no cinema,no red box jz gt tesco tis kinda place nia..very ulu!!haha..
i'm surely can't survive at ther de..
anyway i really enjoy 2 go out together wif wuang chin,aric,enson n prom fren them..

HoUseMate

2009-08-13T09:23:00.000-07:00

so happy 2day after see my housemate write sumthing gud bout me at her blog
n she oso post sum picture during the prom competition too~
she very funny de,everytime she feel hungry thn she will find me n seek 4 food de..
dunno y?did my face look like food?haha..

he say i'm gud housemate oh..^^happy till cannot sleep,haha!
tis few day me n her oso sick zor..
but more her pity coz she scare she kena H1N1,n becoz of tis..
she sleep at living room..becoz she scare will spread 2 her roomate,wat a kind heart,hoho~
wat a pity housemate..haiz!!

lolz..tis week we gonna move 2 new house loh..
becoz auntie told us so..zzz
although it more near TARC,opposite well mart,but it far inside..haiz!
tis week still wanna bz moving..

FaMiLy oF PrOM TARC..

2009-08-13T09:15:00.000-07:00

haha..did u try tis be4..?

2009-08-13T09:10:00.000-07:00

haha..tat day after my prom competition performance,
khai ling find me at backstage n u guess wat..
we taking picture using tat camera..
but it result is very gud^^
hehe!gud professional photographer..

prom final

2009-08-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

some pic which my housemate catch 4 me at the backstage during prom final competition..

一切都结束了~

2009-08-11T01:53:00.000-07:00

终于比赛已经结束了..
结果是我什么都没赢,没关系..不过也真的很可惜..

因为辜负了朋友对我的支持..
而且要怪我粗心吧,因为当时我的表演唱歌过后就是我跳舞了..
当时因为太匆忙了换衣过后忘记放我M2的牌上台,结果我跳的舞就像伴舞一样没分数拿~
Miss NG说我很可惜本来应该我拿第二名了,也称赞我今晚的表现不错,appearance也很好
就可惜我没带上我的牌~

咳..算了吧..都过去了，当作拿经验吧..
这次比赛后,我真的学到很多东西,也让我认识了很多东西~
当中就认识到算是我蛮欣赏她的,她就是“婉君”当时在orientation week就见过她了..
他真的是一个很有自信的女生,做事也很认真..
她让我学会了什么是信心,只要有信心就好看了,而且外表好看也是另一种信心..

也让我有了上台的经验,试问有多少人敢上台表演呢?
所以真的让我见识到很多东西,因为我从小到大都不敢上台,
可能是我对我自己没有信心而且又害怕人家的眼光和容易紧张吧..

另一样就是让我看到的是,比赛的人很多很厉害耍心机..
超讨厌这种人的了!!心机重有让人反感..
我超不喜欢这种厉害耍心机，喜欢做小人,做事很奸诈的人..最让我看不起的了!
算了..一切都过去了,这是他们选择的路,我也没法子..
最后我也想谢谢prom committee为我们付出的时间..真的很感激你们!!
当中包括enson,yaya mummy,laze,cherry,婉君,winson,wen xian,doraemon,小利等等啦,太多了..

今天决赛了，好紧张!!

2009-08-09T18:20:00.000-07:00

啊..今天就是我的死期了,真的好害怕~
昨晚因为我的talent出问题了，唱歌一直忘词,所以就练习到1.30 a.m，吓到!!

今早起来真的很累,喉咙很干，可能因为昨晚练唱太久又没喝很多水，所以..
等下 10.30 a.m 就要去dee beauty做头发，化妆了~
傻到~因为要支持到晚上的妆来..

今晚我就要挑战我自己了,失败还是成功演出真的好令我担心!!
Ivan你行的，给自己一点信心吧!!

很大的挑战!!超出想象~

2009-08-07T11:19:00.000-07:00

7/8/2009-距离比赛还有两天~

啊..压力到要爆了,我的talent 跟looi looi combine起来..
那就是跳舞,真的是挑战我以及考验我..因为..我不会跳舞的~

今天跳舞只学到一半,明天就rehearsal还有很大的考验等着我,
真想放弃可是又不能，因为我已决定到改变自己，不要那么容易放弃啊..ivan你行的!!
咳~累..也没什么好写了~就这样吧..

一句话-”佩服与欣赏“...我想改变自己!!!!我是ivan..

2009-08-05T12:24:00.000-07:00

人生真漫长，人总是不能一天过一天，拥有一个充实又忙碌的生活真的那么爽吗?
就不会累吗?谁知道呢?

可能这就是她的生活,她的满足感，他要求的生活吧~
不过人几忙也好，也要注意健康哦~

我真的很佩服她咯..她算是一个我很欣赏的女生..
因为她有人身的目标,对自己的要求很清楚，也很坚持~
不像我..做事总是半途而废,好没用哦~

她真的是一个很好胜的女生，要赢不要输的那种，而且做什么都要做到最好..
好胜的心很普通人人都会有..不过...她的梦想就是当一个女强人!!
给了自己的那么一个目标，说虽然容易可是做时难!!
有多少人能像她那么坚持,一直在拼命完成自己的梦想，
每天就是过着那么忙碌的一天，甚至忙到喘不过起来，也不轻易放弃..
不管她几不快乐也装着一副快乐的样子让人看不到她的伤心，也许回到家才一个人的哭泣..
那个人就是....不能说的秘密!!哈哈!!!
这就是我佩服她的一点..
我觉得我做不到，因为我没有拥有一颗像她那么坚持和恒心的心~

所以..她能做到，为什么我不能做得到?!!!
我想说..从今天开始!!ivan不再是以前的ivan,而是一直在好的方面改变,不断地在进步的ivan!!!
-不再是对自己没有信心的自己
-不再是轻易放弃的自己
-不再是没有人身目标的自己
-不再是让人瞧不起的自己
-不再是懒懒散散的自己
*如果看到我还是那么做，请提醒我要改变!!谢谢...
所以才会放dream_ivan的原因，可是一路以来都没有坚持过~现在我要改变自己!!!!
加油!!加油!!

送你们一个很有意思的东西，也希望你们珍惜..：

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iVaN is back,updating..

2009-08-05T11:47:00.000-07:00

Ivan我，回来啦..已经很久很久没写blog了哦..
也因为'mummy'叫我update的关系

5/8/09
距离oddessy nite-还有四天~
真的好紧张也很害怕，因为我的talent还搞不定，真后悔当初没学‘一两招'才艺,haiz~

今天真的超没有mood的，因为talent很'beh ki'叻，真的很想哭出来很难受..
只是我本身很难哭，不过我本身觉得哭也是不错的纾解压力的方法，你们都可以试试看~呵呵！
可惜..我不能..因为好像有石头’阻塞'着眼睛，哈哈!!

我觉得我好像给自己太大的压力了，是因为我太介意人们的眼光了吗?还是因为我太容易放弃?或者是我真的对自己太没信心了，总是对我自己说这个不能那个不能..?
不过讲真我也没打算过要赢这场比赛所以本身没很“拼”，到底我的问题出现在哪里呢?
真的是很混乱，很无助~
就..我真的很怕在比赛出丑，也因此弄到我很压力~

今天就像平常一样练习prom traning，不过今天下午没回到家，就四点半课完直接去练习了~
热到脸都红了..
今天miss Ng看过我们表演我们的才艺，不是很满意啊..T.T
只有aric,hooi khim还有b3(shortform来,希望你们知道,我不会写她的名，够力!)的talent没问题而已~
还说了一大堆的评语，真不知该怎么办~想找付墙幢幢算了..haiz!!
结果就after traning，我们去gurney那里的McD吃，也等doraemon来帮我们解决我们talent的东西~可是总觉得不能一直依靠他呀..
没办法咯，怪我头脑简单不够创意，想不出东西~咳，好没用啊..ivan啊，ivan....

2009-07-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

DKA,5.50p.m..
finally the prom competition liao..
2day every thing so rush,n unexpected..
be4 i get in DKA,many ppl oredi waiting at outside DKA,tat time onli 5 p.m nia..omg!
n the competition 5.20 start le,no rehearsal at all..
unexpected!!damn making me so nervous..
whn i catwalk into the DKA,i feel nobody support me..so cold,tis making me so nervous n scare~
n 2day i sing'我可以'but my throat feel very dry n cannot sing high key..
n the more worse me out of tone,so paiseh..
at the end the result is out..
n we waiting outside 2 wait announce the result,huever being anounce name walk into DKA..
1st Aric name being call,2nd Deric,3rd Jason n i feel no hope ad..
hu noe 4th my name being call,n i'm so happy..but whn i walk in the DKA,i feel tat nobody shout my name n clap 4 me..mayb my fren no go 2day 4 support me..
haiz..nw i'm worry final competition le..T.T

TARC Prom competition

2009-07-11T04:03:00.000-07:00

the prom competition is near le n i so nervous..
zzz..becoz of my botak hair jz grow small grass nia,a little bit tulan..
tis reali make my confidence drop..haiz
tis year competition wan wear formal dress like OL to walk catwalk at stage~weird leh..
n i dun hav coat..=="

Raining day

2009-07-11T04:02:00.000-07:00

so cold 2day..oredi rain whole day..i jz cum back from Perangin Mall..

2day i go Time Square oh~n saw many competition held at ther,basketball,football n oso dancing..n

i saw doraemon and xiao li group join dancing competition,n they performance nt bad oh..

hope tat i can dance like them too,but need a lot of afford= ="

累透了

2009-07-09T07:20:00.001-07:00

今天真的真的很累..
八点半就去CA考hubungan etnik了。。
然后就上课到一点，吃了鸡饭一点半就跑去sport-gym，一直到四点半。。=="
不过今天gym没教什么，几无聊一下。。
过后回家冲凉又有prom meeting到晚上八点多，疯到！！
在prom meeting认识到了几位美女，呵呵！还学会了catwalk一点点，自己觉得很烂，需要加油多点练习~
其实本来不打算进prom的，不过想要改造自己，培养信心才决定进的~加油！！因为缺乏信心啊。。
咳。。明天还要考IT,还没读。。会死人的!!!zzz..不过几累也要读，没法子啊。。冲冲冲！！

好累。。

2009-07-07T04:08:00.000-07:00

好累哦！今天去学校又在迟到了=="，还好去到学校没被骂^^
呵呵！因为昨天看寻秦记看到两点多~没办法！看到太精彩紧张的部分了。。

下午5点又有prom校花校草开会。。没办法，谁叫自己要参加~（不过是被骗填表格的。。）
然后六点又看戏剧学会表演。。不过在那里认识到一个人哦^^haha..